Every day I drive by my
old house because it’s in my neighborhood, but yesterday it got me thinking to
myself, “I wish I could go back there, things were much easier back then”, but
when I think about it that’s not really true.
I think when we’re feeling
down we like to go back and think that things were easier “back then”, but
really we had shit going on then too. Living in that house, sure we had great
parties and we were so young, but we had our fair share of hardship too. The
more I thought about it I remembered countless cry fests over “boyfriends”,
fights with my roommate (we would write each other letters cause we couldn't stand each other. Thankfully we’re best friends now) and even some fist a cuffs
with my sissy (yeah those still happen). If nothing else rent was only $300 and
I could function on little to no sleep. Boy how the time has changed me.
Sweet sister - I wish I could take credit for "knowing"...but I "know" it's all Him. You were heavy on my heart - no particular reason, but sometimes, I know, it's good to hear that someone is thinking of you and praying for you. All that "stuff" you are referring to...back then and now...it'll always be there...it's finding peace and joy in these moments and in those memories that makes it all worth it. I've decided that if life isn't hard, my dear, you're doing something wrong. It's not the end product...it's all the work in between. It's all those cry fests, fights, and moments of chaos that leave you with best friends today, funny stories, and memories to cherish. I love you. More than you will ever know, sweet lady. XOXO
ReplyDeleteAw thanks Gypsy. I know what you're saying is true and you say it so perfectly. Love you sweet sister.
ReplyDelete