Thankful

I fucking love Thanksgiving. For starters I must say I’m thankful that I can use that kind of language and not be judged (stop judging) or shot. Second this year a bunch of peeps are in town making rounds. Cousin Corey is going to make a stop and I’m so excited. I haven’t seen him since he asked us to “paint the town red with some green berets” and that was at least 2 years ago. I’m lying. He was in town for a short stop and we met for a quick lunch. Still so.excited.

Last night I heard of some dear old friends being in town (they only make it every 3 years) and at my sissy’s bar. Even though I was tired and hadn't showered I still got my ass up there to see them. If I hadn't I would of regretted it because I love these two folks and miss the shit out of them! I’m thankful for the (short) time I got to spend with them. It’s been a long time since I’d seen Philly’s face and it was joyous.

I’m staying with dear sweet Bruce this week while my brother and sister (in law) are enjoying New York. I’m thankful he’s such a champ! He may fall but he gets back up. I love how he sleeps next to my bed. I don’t know if this is because he wants to be near someone or if he’s being protective. Maybe both. 

Tis the Season to Take Lots of Days Off from Work

Today is Thursday and my last full work week. Next week we have Thursday and Friday off for Thanksgiving and then starts my “every Friday off” weeks.

It’s a struggle to get out of bed every morning. It’s cold (love it), dark (time change) and I felt a bit under the weather this week (blah). I always get a cold/sinus infection this time of year. The weather is just so up and down it’s hard not to get sick.

That all being said, I’m totes wearing heels today and its totes a challenge! 

Surprisingly Busy Week on OKC

Lately when I open up my OKC app there is little to NO activity, but today I had a bunch of notifications and interests. What’s going on OKC? Did you get some new members or something? This usually only occurs when I change my picture, which I have not.

The guy who wanted to move to Columbia and me be his Penelope Cruz to his Johnny Depp, is still messaging me. He asked if he should book the flight to which I replied, “ Shouldn't we meet first” and thinks we have plenty of time to get to know each other on the flight and it takes too much time to meet first…Um ok…How bout NO!

“GOTYERASS” (interesting screen name right!?) tells  me he could “really dig me”. Um duh! I’m totes dig'able, but his pictures are cute so even despite that awful name I wrote him back.

You Know it Aint That Cut and Dry

My beffy and I were hanging out last night and as we do we started talking about boys and…stuff…(by stuff I mean cookies and rainbows obviously).

We were watching American Horror Story Asylum and there was kind of a hot quickie sex scene between two “crazies”. I called this shit a couple of episodes ago, but for some reason my sissy didn't see what I saw. HELLO there was something there. Anyways following the sex scene my beffy says, “It’s always so clean in the movies when you know there’s a mess. One day I wanna see a movie where he cleans off her stomach”.

This gave me the LOL’s, because it’s TRUE! I mean come on. You can’t just do your business up in someone without consequences. That being said Happy Friday!

Just a thought, I've gotten a couple of Clockwork Orange feelings about the new season. I mean first off there is a scene with Kit where his eyes are held open that looks strikingly similar to Alex. THEN they go and try to “un gay” the main character in AHS buy making her look at pictures of naked women while feeding her drugs that make her vomit. Coincidence? 

My Journey’s: Work Business up in My Business

Someone at work asked me the other day how “M” and I got together (side bar: “M” is one of my ex’s and he works with me). First off, how bout mind yb!? No really.

“M” and I have been friends since high school. I thought he was the hottest thing that walked the halls of Chamblee (even with his red forehead from falling asleep in class. Now that is LOVE). You know what they say is true you are your surroundings. We were so back and forth for years. He was into me, but I wasn't into him and vise versa. Finally we got on the same page (so I thought) and we made it official. As I do when I finally get what I want I don’t want it anymore. I think by the time it finally happened I was just over it, but wanted to give it a go.

Me thinks I do stuff like this all the time. Typical girl behavior of wanting what I can’t have just because I can’t have it. What a brat I can be. I could be totally into just being casual but as soon as he says he wants to be casual I’m like, what wait a minute that’s not how this is suppose to work…

I wish it were Friday. Ever since last December, when I took every Friday (and a couple Monday’s) of the month off I never got use to coming back to the 5 day work weeks. That being said, it’s almost December and I’ll be doing that again. 

Tales from the OKC

I got a message from a guy the other day saying that he wanted to move to Columbia, like Johnny Depp in Blow, and he needed me to be his Penelope Cruz, alls I had to do was sit by the pool all day looking hot and drinking margaritas.

As appetizing as that sounds it’s going to be a strong NO for me. 

My Journey’s: Maybe the First

Because it’s been a while, God knows the dating pool is awful right now (side bar: I am dating but it’s just dating) I’m reaching back a bit…

The other day I was thinking (I know I shouldn't strain myself) and I thought Garrett was my first real boyfriend. He should of set the tone for future relationships, but instead I rejected him. What is wrong with me? He was such a good guy. Carnations for our three-month anniversary, something he found more exciting than I did, he never push me into anything (kissing back then was a big deal mkay) and he always had nice things to say about me despite what was in his ear (Chamblee can be so dramatic and talk talk talk).

I’m probably stretching the truth a little. When I hit high school I had a number of boyfriends right off the bat (I’m not gloating). In truth I was just new eye candy to some, but I was something special to Garrett. He made sure I knew that and it made me feel weird so I put an end to it. I chose to be with someone that was less than good to me instead. This person turned out to be my long term. I grieve the thought of this.

The older I get (or maybe it’s just the dating) the more I realize that certain things just don’t matter and the ONE thing that actually does is how someone makes you feel. We set the tones for how we want to be treated. If we let guys get away with being jerks they’re going to be jerks. The saddest thing of all is Garret was way cuter (and taller) than who I chose for long term. What.Was.I.Thinking!? Now I’m so frightened of losing myself or getting hurt it’s hard for me to take the leap. And I really only have myself to blame. Most of us are damaged and we need to get the F over it! Live in the now.

This is turning into a self help (of sorts) so I’ll end with Happy Voting Tuesday! Thank God it’s almost over. It’s nasty outside and I can only think that it’s a direct reflection on our candidates. That being said, I'm not voting so as my Daddio would say my opinion doesn't count.